Shed the Weight...Trust theProcess
Losing weight is hard but staying consistent is even harder lawd. For years I was insecure about the way I looked inside and out. And when it came to my body oh trust me, it was not the most pleasing thing to see(at least for me). Around my high school years, I began to see myself as somebody who was trying have the ‘perfect body’ for all to see. I wanted to be 'the jock' that had all the girls and worked out 24/7 with a ripped six pack. And when you hear those around you constantly calling out the flaws in yourself when you already knew it, it takes you into place of not wanting to be even seen.
Fast forward to my college years and that’s when the weight loss journey started. Coming into my freshman, I would say that I still had those insecurities about my body. Not wanting to take my shirt off because I felt like my chest was as big as a normal woman’s chest. I had no and I MEAN NO NECK 😂🤦🏾♂️😩. It was something that I knew I had to change about myself not just on the outside but on the inside as well. So I started working out and by my senior year, I dropped weight faster than drug addict..no seriously. I looked sick....stressing, not really taking care of my body and in dropping that much weight, for the first time I felt even more ugly and insecure. So I stopped working out and started to stress eat ALOT! Gained some weight back and sunk into an even more depression.
I had to find a balance and understand what ‘working out’ really meant. I knew that I didn’t want to be the ‘guy’ on tv or social media flexin’ but I wanted to be in love with my body, and I mean all of my body. So I started back up again at the beginning of the new year and started to see a shift in my mind, body and spirit that I never felt before. I started to love me again and understand that I couldn’t keep comparing my body to others around me and having that tunnel vision to focus on me. I always loved me some me 😜 but now I feel it and I have no shame in showing it, trust me.
I’m not where I want to be, not exactly because it’s a process and it takes time. It’s been a 6-year journey and it has taught me so much about to how re-love myself, re-visit myself and to just be comfortable with the skin I’m in. Some us sit her and complain about our bodies but don’t do anything about it and wonder why...? It’s a process, so have patience. Trust me and trust the process.